Dilemma

For the past 20 days I have been minding my p's and q's when it comes to this cleanse I have been doing. I am feeling good and even have noticed a change in how my clothes fit. This has been awesome because I wasn't really expecting to see a change in my weight with this cleanse. As I mentioned in a prior post even others noticed a change without me mentioning to them I was doing this.

Well, that high came crashing down last night when I watched the dvr'd segment of my on the news yesterday morning.

I've always had a pretty good self esteem about myself, but the last couple of years that has all been put to the test with this unexplained weight gain. The gain has worn me down and frustrated me. I don't feel as though I have control over my own body and at some points don't even recognize the person that stares back at me in the mirror.

I have even noticed that I shy away from having my picture taken because the person that shows up in the picture as me, is not the person that lives in my head. I once again came face to face with this reality as I saw myself on tv. The person, "me", that was standing there talking was not me. I was even embarrassed and almost didn't want to finish watching myself.

Don't get me wrong... I know I am a great person and I know things will change. I am just really frustrated with my current state. But, I feel like I am in the right path in getting help to jump start some weight change. Here's to hoping it all works. After the 8th I will be down with the cleanse and will post my weight progress.

For those of you who missed the tv segment. Here are some pics Jon took with his phone. Please keep in mind I am being brave in posting these, since I am obviously not happy with who I am in them.

Birds

I have an insane love of everything birds. Not only real living birds but also bird decor. The other day Pioneer Woman posted this china on her blog and needless to say, I am in love!

Busy Bee

The last little while I have been prepping for Craft Lake City. I have even put Jon to work asking for his assistance with painting. For my display I found some nice tables, but of course I had to make things difficult and insist that they be painted the colors I wanted.

I've been a mess the last few days trying to get everything accomplished that I want to. Here's a shot of my the current state of my craft room.

Part of my stress is due in part to the fact that I have to do a mock set up tomorrow morning at the crack of dawn for the Channel 2 News with Casey Scott. If you are up that early tune in and you might get to see a sneak peek of my both and maybe yours truely!

Mark your Calendars...

Two weeks to go!

I'll be there with a booth for my vinyl chalkboards and whiteboards.
Come check out the crafts!

How I roll..

In an attempt to make my blog more interesting I am going to start a blog label titled "How I roll..". For these posts I am going to let you all in, a little more, on my crazy life. I imagine it will be pictures of crazy randomness that is my daily life.

Are you all ready?

Random Thoughts

I've been kinda MIA again... I have been busy and haven't exactly been inspired to write on my blog. I used to think that I wanted a blog that people would flock to and read everyday. Then I realized my blog really isn't that interesting. It's just random tidbits of my thoughts, ramblings and other stuff I throw up here on the good 'ol internet. Anyway... I still don't have much to say. This weekend I will try and post pictures from a recent mini adventure.

Side note: I started my medical cleanse as recommended by the Integrative Medicine Center that I have been going to. I didn't exactly love that every doctor I previously went to wanted to give me some prescription to "fix" my problem - so I decided to try a more Eastern approach. It's a 28 day cleanse and I am on day 10. I already notice a difference and others have noticed too. Only downside, I get an occasional craving for a food I can't have. We'll see what a difference has been made at the end of day 28.

It's yours.. you keep it!

One of my pet peeves in life is cigarette butts. I HATE that people choose to smoke and then feel compelled that they do not need to keep the remnants from their cigarette in their car - but rather just flick it out the window. First off, last time I checked this was considered littering. If you choose to smoke it, then you should have to keep it in the car with you until you can properly dispose of it. Newsflash it's not like you and your car don't already smell from smoking the cigarette. Keeping it in your ashtrash until you can throw it away isn't going to make that big of a difference. However, it will make a difference in the environment. There won't be cigarette butts in the gutters, the edges of the freeway and more specifically in my yard.

I don't care what habits people have, unless those habits impact my life. Some days it takes everything I have... to not get out of my car and retrieve a cigarette butt, throw out of someone's car window, and throw it back in their car with them. Ps. sticking your hand out the window, like you are feeling the breeze, but instead slyly tossing your cigarette butt... isn't fooling anyone. If you have to go to those lengths you obviously know you shouldn't be doing it.

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